quote of the day:

"It's not daily increase but decrease - hack away the unessential!"-- bruce lee

in other words, streamline your life.

so to all the baggage, all the hurt, all the bad magic people have brought to my life, all the bad decisions i have made bringing bad people who bring bad magic to my life, all the unnecessary advice friends gave me when i already know better, all the pressures my parents have on me, all the overprice bad food, all the crazies and the ghost faces... i press...

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today's letter is the letter "C"



as in COURTESY, CALIBER, CARING, CONSCIOUS, COLLECTIVE, CAUSE, AND CALIFORNIA!!!

thanks, ZOE, for the pic!!!

day 2 of the war
there is something so unnerving about waking up to war. my television wakes me up and the first thing i hear are sirens and bombs. dada, a buddhist monk from manila, told me that i should limit my stimulation in the morning; i should be in silence; speak none; smell none; taste none; think none. that the moment when i first wake up should be directed to God.

but there i am, cuddled in the warmth of my bed. at this point, i pray for a swift war. that the troops should come home and that iraq can rebuild. as i lay in bed and watch the visuals on tv, somewhere, a woman cries. somewhere, children are scared. somewhere, a wife prays. somewhere, someone's daughter misses her sargent mother. somewhere, an 20-year old soldier stands into battle. somewhere, an iraqi family sees their city turn into rubble. somewhere, somebody is plotting...

and that is what i am scared of.

it started. now when will it end?

on a lighter note



my buddy brian is trying to sell me!

complain, complain, complain

complaint #1
it's hella dry out here! the dry wind is killing me right now! it hurts to smile right now and my hair is like an antenna, picking up all the static electricity thus making this girl FRAZZLED! its messing up the balance of my biochemical electricity. my neurons are on edge right now!

complaint #2
is it me or is everybody overly sensitive? i feel like i am everybody's boyfriend and they are my girlfriend (regardless of gender) and they all simutaneously are giving me guilt trips. sheeeesh! alright already... hmmm.. maybe i am just being overly sensitive over my overly sensitive friends.

complaint #3
why the hell is blogger not changing my template design???? i changed it last week and it is still not showing!

complaint #4
I HAVE NO SPEAKERS AT WORK. THE SILENCE IS KILLING ME. ACTUALLY, I AM LISTENING TO THE TIPPITY TAP TAP OF THE KEYBOARDS RIGHT NOW AND IT IS DRIVING ME BANANAS!

complaint #5
i need a hug right now and the only one who would give it to me is this freaky old executive man from another office down the hallway who claims to own a record label. eww. i think i shall pass. what a moron...

today's letter is the letter P



as in PINAY, PRINCESS, POORHOUSE PROJEKTS, PEACE, PRAISE, POETRY, and PEN

thank you so much, to CARLIE, for the picture and the big-ups to poorhouse!

the drums of war are drumming louder
bush and blair has spoken today in a press conference. tomorrow is the day when we shall see if diplomacy shall work. the deadline has been set.

today, let us all pray and focus our hearts energy for peace, for resolution through diplomacy, for the friends and family in the military (believe it or not, no one wants peace more than the soldier. let them come home to family), for the thousands of iraqi people- men, women, and children, esp the children and for the unification of this nation thru complete knowledge, wisdom, and understanding. no more blind patriotism please.

i learn from my sister
the phone crackles ever so slightly. my sister was parked in a target parking lot while thirty-six miles away, i am laying in my bed, movie on pause. we were talking on the phone for more than 30 minutes about boys (well, guys. we are too old to be talking about boys.), school ( or in my case, work), art, and gossip.

the subject then turned towards sex. now, i know that many of you cringe to talk about something as intense as sex with a sibling but i would much rather have her talk to me about it than to turn to her friends.

upon talking to her, i noticed how she has a remarkable mature view on the subject. she isn't delusioned nor is she questioning the significance it is in a relationship. in fact, she decided to wait until the right one comes along and that she wanted to develop her spirituality and mind more.

i was so proud of her. i commented on how she was so strong and mature for her age and that she should wear her crown with dignity. i also asked where she adopted such canons and that when i was her age, i was still figuring things out when it came to sex.

"i learned it from you," she replied."i tell every body that i learn everything thru my big sister."

rewind back to when i was 18 and she was 9. i took her out to get some ice cream. i then started talking to her about life, and ultimately, about boys.

"guys will say ANYTHING to get in your pants, ana. they'll even say that they will love you. don't believe their bullshit."

ana remembered sinking in her seat, silently protesting in her head. ummm, why the hell are we talking about this. alfie, shut up.

but apparently, everything i said to her in that car ride stuck.

fast forward to the present.

"see, alfie! i listen! i remember everything you tell me." she said.

i didn't... but now i do. i remember that conversation. i remember even thinking ,"ohh, she is uncomfortable. but i don't care. she has to know..."

thanks ana, for reminding me.

that night, she taught me to remember. and that one obtains dignity thru humility. all praises due...