i want to fly
i want to fly
i want to spread my butterfly rash wings
that have been clipped so i couldn't see the sun
my soul that kissed my cheeks at five
my sol that connects the brown skin to my lola's eyes
my soles never grounded
as i run on rays towards the light because
i want to fly
i want to fly
i want to take each tear that fell into my lap
and cut each string to my limbs that were attached
attack each chill i got from fear
and harness them in jar
and use the energy to flap my arms until they are sore
as i soar over mountains of greed
or treetops of bad seeds
planted by enemies' hands
who are rooted in the pleasure of seeing me cry
but instead...
i fly
i want to fly
i want to fly
i want to take the Most High's hands and jump off the tallest peak
make laughs and giggles be the language that i speak
making sure that my smiles be transcended from
every boundary, every gender, every country
every messenger spread the truth that i have spoken with conviction
an addiction i have that keeps me in withdrawal for more
so i withdraw every happy moment from my memory banks
in increments of twenties
reminding me of my coordinates of x,y, and z
because in order for me to travel through space and time
i need to take time to face me in the right direction because
i want to fly
i want to fly
i want grab hold of that pacific breeze
head towards that land over seas
and remind my self why my mother sings songs of bayanis
why fire of the soul is connected to the meaning of tattooed skin
why my father cracks a smile he tastes a kiss from the sea
why i myself can hear the diwatas sing thru the rustling of the leaves
i want to leave so that i know why i stay
i want to fly
i want to fly
i want to fly out of present state
out of present mind set and body
in hopes that i can see in third person
to break these optic illusions from carnival mirrors
and destroy these mental delusions from self persecution
to take inventory of every pearl of knowledge
to string them together and maybe pass it on as an heirloom
to understand where i have been and where i am going
that maybe in eagle's perspective i can see me growing