Friday, May 12, 2006

sometimes the universe speaks thru you with barbed wire...

again, let me reiterate- i have stopped searching for signs long time ago. sometimes, you find your ego mind wanting to shape anything that "walks like a sign, looks like a sign, talks like a sign". often times, its alot like banging a square peg in a circular hole. bang bang bang... and if you are not careful or mindful, the banging becomes repetitive enough to the point where your mind finds it meditative, but instead, the rhythm keeps you from progressing.

so...

in my many retreats to moonlit beaches, where the crashing of waves centers me again, i found an epiphany..

by chainlinked fences topped with barbed wire, was tissue paper, flapping in the wind.

and what was once just viewed to wipe away spills and messes, was now a flag dancing in the wind. rustling as it mimics the sound of a thousand rustling leaves.

but then as i sat and looked, the edges started to fray. bits of paper started tearing off and run in the currents of the wind. within a few minutes, the paper disappeared, destroyed.

so, it came to me.

that if the barbed wire had the ability of letting go the paper would still be intact.

bare with me now...

because often times, i hold onto things that was meant to move with the wind. fragile things. and maybe holding on to it is the very act of destroying it.

now maybe it was the paper that held on. if the paper had the ability to let go, it would still be intact.

because often times, i stay in situations that i dont need to be in. i don't let go and i am left "fighting the air". maybe i don't want change. maybe i hold on to ideologies that are not meant for me and its destroying me and where i need to go.



let God, let love, let go. because as much control you have over your actions and decisions, you can't master things externally. and sometimes, you just gotta let things be, so that things are to develop how they most naturally would need to develop...



let God, let love, let go...

1 comment:

Yasamin said...

sometimes ... no matter how much you try, psychologically, you cant let go. and then you face the consequences of those actions.. you destroy not only what you held on to so avidly, but also yourself.