[[[fast and furious]]]

day two of fasting. well, not completely fasting but ia m working myself up to that. yesterday was fruit and yerba mate tea. today, i am trying real real hard to not drink any caffiene and start drinking more water. my body needs to be in balance right now.i need to schedule an appointment with my chinese holistic doctor, even if he ridicules me. from what i understand, he clowns everybody. "your liver is as damaged as an 80 yr old." maaaaaaaaaan, fugg you! haha! but whatever. he is right. so now i have to stay away from pasta, sugar (((sigh))), rice ((cringing)), and coffee (( falling to the floor in a dramatic heap of uninhibited emotional dispair))).. (( collecing myself)). i need a pressure point massage to. imagine how odd i must look to my coworkers with me trying to release negative energy by pressing down hard on the five pressure points on the crown of my head. faustino, a healer, taught me that and it works wonders. been noticing that my ill feelings do actually correlate to the pain i feel when pressing down pressure points in my hands. great.. i can hear dr. wu now..."look at yourself! you were not listening to me! i told you what you to do and you don't listen. your liver is shitty now." hahahaahahaha

random thought:::..

always take herbal capsule pills with a drink and not dry like you you can with some pills. oh the horror you feel when one of those pills disinagrate in your throat, releasing the burning powder, filling up your sinuses, making you grab your face and throat in pain.. no drama needed there... that ish really does hurt!