people never cease to amaze me...

they never cease to disappoint me either.

i understand that truth is not always meant to be swallowed so easily. but when it comes to people who have deceived me, then that is a whole other animal to deal with.

so here i am, struggling to be solid. cuz it can very well not be my lesson and this is theirs. but i can't help but struggle with this anger welling up in me.

and maybe that is my lesson. to not be affected.

disappointment. anger. sadness. having no trust. i don't know which feeling is worse.