today...
i woke up to the sounds of a jackhammer. it has been this way for about a month now. it has come to the point where it has become melodic to me. i wake up, i say "good morning" to God and the rat-tat-tat-tatting becomes white noise where i eventually go back to sleep for another 40 mins or so.

today...
the monitor does not work.i am slowly freaking out as i need to get some work done. i am trying not to think of my sister's allowance, the phone bill, the gas bill, the electric bill, the fact that i need to pay for my bridesmaid dress and accessories.

no, instead, today, i will take the universe's lead and breathe. i am going to the farmer's market and buy some apples, mangos, some bell peppers, and an iced americano from the little yellow mom-n-pop coffee stand.

today...
i will go the bakery down the street and get a honey multi-grain loaf, some brie at trader joe's, and pour some red wine. i will clink glasses my roommate mitzi and we are going to talk about how we hate bush and how a revolution is needed but will not happen anytime in the next couple of months, and of course, love.

today...
i will fall in love with the next man whose philosophy of love and romance matches with mine. how he shall dedicate his words to the healing of the world as well as himself. in my head, i will have a whirlwind romance, complete with cherry blossom walks in japan, and holding hands underneath a paris moon. and by tonight, i shall break up with him only to be ready for the next romance for the next day.

(( snapping out of it ))

fuckin aye... why is my friggin' monitor not working.. aaaaaaaaaaaaaargh!!!!!! i need to work, not freewrite!!!!