Its close to 11pm and I don’t know what I should do with myself. I passed out at 5pm and woke up at 10 pm. It's one of those rare moments when fatigue takes over the body unexpectedly. Those rare moments when your hearing gets dull and your head gets stuffed and you lay down for what you think would be a minute, only to wake up with a "what the fuck" five hours later.

And now I am awake.

Not that "oh, I can take the world right now" awake. More like, "I cant go to sleep right now and it is too late to do anything" type awake.

So I am here, fumbling around on what clever thing to say. But I have nothing.

You are probably thinking "woman, you are wasting my precious time."

I apologize.

Shoot, I wish I knew what to do . Consider yourself a good friend, listening to my bullshit, helping me expend energy.

I know I know. I can talk about ... Shoot, I dunno... Stuff! that's it- I am going to talk about things that I like and don't like...


I have joined a cult
Ok, not really, but I am trying this phenomena called netflix. I resisted for so long, not really seeing the benefits of suscribing to an online movie rental service. But we don't have cable, and my rabbit ears can only pick up so many shows that don't look like a blizzard. To add to that, I saw how much I spend at hollywood video in the month of november. Ungodly!


So far so good. I turn them around in a day. I am a product of living in los angeles, and living with an aspiring screen writer. As an artist in varying levels, I am all about storytelling in the craft of creativity. I have become a newly born movie geek, watching movies and then having analytic conversations about what I have seen with another movie geek (aka writer, movie fan, actor, filmmaker.)

Well, SOME movies I have intellectual conversations with. Sometimes, movies like "wedding crashers" aren't worth the lattes and biscottis. The belly laughs are enough.

Here is a unbiased review on online renting in case you are interested:
http://www.finetuning.com/articles/p0-280-truth-about-renting-online.html

addicted to this site
I admit it, I am a DYI fan. Do it yourself type of girl. Watching todd oldham on mtv's house of style got me hooked. I mean, I remember being a college student looking at all these projects thinking "oh my god! are you serious? So easy and soooo cute!!"

I sat in the bookstore salivating over this book:


And this one. I think this one is more my stilo, being on a budget and all:



My friend vanessa also turned me on to ready made magazine, a magazine for "people who likes to make stuff."


I also frequent craftster.

What??? This ain't your gramma's hobby...

art of war by sun tzu
I am re-reading the "art of war". This is not only a philosophy of war but also the philosophy of peace. Its all on how you flip it.

"Energy may be likened to the bending of a crossbow; decision, to the releasing of a trigger. "


Whoa.. I am tired now.. Night night

res·o·lu·tion     P     Pronunciation Key   (r z-l sh n)
n.
The state or quality of being resolute; firm determination.
A resolving to do something.
A course of action determined or decided on.

We do this year after year after year. We make these resolutions, in the hope that we can improve something in our lives. And for the first few months, we are gung ho, hitting the gym, stomping on cigarette packets, writing in our journals.

In the eve of 2004, I didn't make resolutions. In fact, I didn't even partied. In my own rationale, I purposely didn’t go out. why should I pressure myself in going out, spending beau coup money, and sharing the space with drunk ass, faded strangers. Instead, I stayed home and meditated. I welcomed 2005 and turn over to sleep.

Instead of making a list of resolutions ( and believe me, that was hard being that I am a notorious list maker ), I made a decision to be more present in mind and pretend that each day is a new day in assessing and making more resolutions.

2005 was a very productive and fruitful year for me.

and they say, what you do on the eve of the new year sets the tone for what the upcoming year is going to be like.
Well last night was an interesting night. Me and the crew had no set plans. With a series of miscommunication and invitations with different venues, the crew met up in my house in order to decide what we need to do. Well to make a long story short, let me just say drunken laughter, cuban cigars, busting holes thru ceilings, police stake out at the party we were suppose to go to, a near bar brawl with a group of belligerant gay men, cooking for a potluck while stoned, multiple texts --- all led to the crew and other friends back to my house.

And luckily, with my recent attempts at feng shuing, I had the house cleaner than ever. It is still in transition, but clearing the house and filling it with things that I love had made the house seem like it was embracing each and every one of us.

And regardless of all of us carpooling thru different places, we ended up at home. We came full circle.

So basically, sets the mood for the upcoming year- I am focusing on my home and office, my work, and myself. Now is the year in which I take care of myself, spiritually, mentally, and esp physically. If they say home is where the heart is, then my body needs feng shui-ing itself.

And with the home, I am making improvements. Hopefully,as things are settling and I am done with the rearranging and purging, I would invite people that I love more often, and fill my space with good energy. Only then can I continue to move on with my growth and journey.

Coming full circle. Back to us.