lesson of the day:
ladies, even though you hang out with boys doesn't mean you all of the sudden are invincible to them. when play wrestling and attempting to execute WWE moves, use discretion. no matter how controlled your boys say they are, the people's elbow to the gut STILL MAWFAWKIN' HURTS!

new career change
imma get in the WWE industry and go as rikishi's little sister, talo fatu. my finishing move would to smash men in the balls and call it the coconut smasher. then i'll go around and bodyslam the ladies thru a table cuz they are all stupid. (except lita, she's cool... and maybe trish cuz she throws down. although i think her boobs are built to high on her chest.)

yup, bubba dudley would have a crush on me

to you:
i know you read this. so listen up. in this world we live in, i can only help you if you let me in. but you have to meet me half way. i am at the equator. meet me there...

i hope you are well.

fuck
my friend cries out for me and i don't know how to fucken help him. he hurts and i can only listen. he does not hear what i am trying to tell him. holding him doesn't seem enough.if only he sees what i see...

Radicalization involves increased commitment to the position one has chosen. It is predominantly critical, loving, humble, and communicative, and therefore a positive stance. The man who has made a radical option does not deny another man's right to choose, nor does he try to impose his own choice. He can discuss their respective positions. He is convinced he is right , but respects another man's prerogative to judge himself correct. The radical does, however, have the duty, imposed by love itself, to react against the violence of those who try to silence him--of those who, in the name of freedom, kill his freedom and their own. To be radical does not imply self-flagellation. Radicals cannot passively accept a situation in which the excessive power of a few leads to the dehumanization of all....- Paulo Freire

((sigh))
my dog died. just got the call. he was old. almost 17 years old. still doesn't make it any easier.

ramsey has been a big part of our lives. he was a rebel. he talked back. he had balls. for a little guy, he was not afraid of anything. he was gangsta like that. but when we cried, he cried with us. even came up to lick our faces and put his face on our laps.

i feel like shit.

fugg the detox. i need a drink. gonna get a triple shot soy latte.

The artist doesn't have time to listen to the critics. The ones who want to be writers read the reviews, the ones who want to write don't have the time to read reviews.
William Faulkner (1897 - 1962)

10 top things that kick ass (in no particular order)
1. Sol Fest at Macarthur Park- it is peace to see so many people in the artist movement in one place! Vendors selling dope art, organizations passing out information about what is going on in our communities, families, hip hop heads, hippies, activists, actors, artists, musicians, graff artists, bboys/bgirls, the rasta van with the mobile dj, spoken word, elotes, vegan food, tamales, cotton candies, children “kissing” people with gerber daisies… ugh, I can go on and on. PEACE TO: balagtasan collective, faith santilla, native guns, kmb, fil-am arts, mr.grizzly from woolies,, meadow, Elijah, james from deity, Daniel and Mario from anahuak clothing, the moreton brothers, sutol clothing, evolve clothing, strich 9, medusa and feline science, and the dude who ran the elotes cart!
2. faith’s bday party at cha cha cha’s on Melrose. You want dope ambiance and even doper carribean food, go there!
3. the pink journal phloe blessed me with. Thanks, phloe! I am going to fill the pages with ramblings and ventings and love!
4. the dope ass skirt Mr. Grizzly aka I-Grow designed for me! Bro, I got maaaaad compliments from people. You are very talented!
5. tangerine sugar scrub from trader joe's
6. shameless self promotion #1- being on soulophonics spoken word cd
7. shameless self promotion#2- I am published in 2003 Maganda magazine
8. sketching to jazzonova, bebel gilberto, zap mama, les nubiennes, and sunny day real estate
9. slowly coming out of my cocooning stage and writing three poems!
10. I AM GOING TO SEATTLE!!!! (brian, can I borrow you digital camera?)

10 top things that SUCK ass (in no particular order)
1. not having rice available!!!
2. rain on sol fest. Sol means sun in Spanish. Helloooooo?
3. schedule was behind a couple of hours. Now I know how it feels to be in both sides of producing the show!
4. missing kali class again! Looks like I am going to have to double up classes
5. not finding enough time to finish things
6. not finding enough time to sleep
7. wheatgrass shots. Okay, I know they are soooo good for you but it still doesn’t ease the fact that it taste like lawn clippings
8. US patriot act I and II- fucken sucks major ass
9. not having time to spend time with my family. In fact, that is the first thing I am changing.
10. not being around for the june NOMMO sucks. Imma miss you guys!