Friday, April 04, 2003

THOUGHT OF THE DAY
hey, here is a hypothetical question. say a woman is ready to have kids but have not found mr right. say the woman has a guy friend who is ready for kids but has not found ms. right either. say the two friends are down to have kid together and raise the kid together and that the two friends love each other and trust each other to have these kids but their love is not the "husband/wife" kind. what do you think about that?

answers from my wonderful friends
RJesena: Monica was desperately trying to get pregnant
RJesena: and was sick of trying to find mr. Right
RJesena: so she contemplate getting pregnant because by a friend because she wanted a baby so much
RJesena: see you're like Monica right now
RJesena: just wait long enough and one of your friends, could be your Chandler Bing
RJesena: Ok, I've been watching too many Friends episodes...

caineinyamouf: dont do it alfie
caineinyamouf: baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad idea
caineinyamouf: not fair to the kid either

side note: i NEVER said that the woman was me!!!! it was hypothetical

MajGoku2002: lol thats ironic
MajGoku2002: almost an oxymoron

Randy Q Says: LOL ok there Will And Grace

faith santilla: hmmm...i'm all for having a kid on your own if you want...it sounds to me though, that there are some unresolved things between those two friends
faith santilla: perhaps maybe those two friends are into each other, but are not ready to commit to building a relationship...
faith santilla: and that is a problem if they wanna have kids together...
faith santilla: it's very rare to have to people that can really compartamentalize feelings that normally come together - love, want kids
faith santilla: unless they're gay
faith santilla: maybe

then she later says...
faith santilla: but i'm saying, romance is cultivated
faith santilla: i still think you guys have the hots for each other

side note: hey CAINE, i am still good. i didn't talk about my love life! i was just instilling conversation. and NOOOOOOO, i am not going to start a family. i was just asking!

personally, i am old fashioned. i will wait...

Thursday, April 03, 2003

but before i stop talking about it
let me say this...

a bit of spiritual food that i needed to hear this morning. many of you might know this but this is in my native language. i am reminded...

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4 Ang pag-ibig ay matiyaga at mabait. Ang pag-ibig ay hindi naiinggit. Ang pag-ibig ay hindi nagmamapuri o nagmamataas.


5 Ito ay hindi nag-uugali ng di-nararapat, hindi ito naghahangad ng sariling kapakinabangan, hindi madaling magalit at hindi nag-iisip ng masama.

6 Hindi ito nagagalak sa kalikuan kundi nagagalak sa katotohanan.


7Ang pag-ibig ay nagtatakip ng lahat ng bagay. Ito ay naniniwala sa lahat ng bagay, umaasa sa lahat ng bagay, nagbabata sa lahat ng bagay.


8 Ang pag-ibig ay hindi nagwawakas. Kung mayroong paghahayag, ang mga ito ay lilipas. Kung may pagsasalita ng mga wika, sila ay titigil. Kung may kaalaman, ito ay lilipas.
please bare the mess

i am not good at TA-DAH design surprises. i just leave em up as i work on it. so you will be seeing the changes as we go along.

my total being is at piece. i am not so frazzled... wait... (( breathe)) ok, i lied.

i miss being an insomniac. i used to get alot of stuff done. but that is what happens when you take the coffee out of the IV that was stuck to my veins.

oh and CAINE doesn't want me analyzing about love for a whole month. he is tired of me trying to philosophize about it. haha jk. all good. i need to focus on rehearsals and some upcoming shows and events. if i can't have coffee then i am going to have to exert all my wit and brain power in order to get shit done.

"no time for love, dr. jones"-shortstop from the temple of doom

"i ain't got time for the jibba jabba"-mr. t

Wednesday, April 02, 2003

coming full circle

all these revelations one makes throughout life... coming full circle... revolutions... re-evolution of one's self. came to a learned lesson saturday.

Recently, I took a breather from dating to figure out what I want.

In comes J.R. who’s reintroduction in my life reminds me how good a person’s vibe can actually hug one’s aura. I no longer see him as an "ex" but as a "friend" and though he and I are not going down memory lane, revisiting our past relationship, his presence reminded me of a person’s glance was enough to conduct energy so electric that the only way to handle the pent up giggles was to sigh.

So needless to say, for the past week, I felt lonely. I miss him. I miss the feeling of love and being in love. I was more so afraid of not finding it again. What if that was it? “At least you had it for 9 years, alf. Not too many people can say they had.”

Aaaaah baloney. I want to feel it again

Well, I couldn’t help but realize that my friends who are attached are calling me for advice and comfort. Apparently, they are going thru something with their boyfriends. Or girlfriends. Now, I will not go into complete detail here, seeing as if people read my blog and I don’t want to put anybody’s relationship on blast but a few of them had said, ”oh to be single again.”

What? Here I am saying “oh to be in love again!” and thinking that once I find someone my wallowing will be over.

But it goes to show that answers to your question are not so absolute. You struggle and you have problems in one area of life and when you think you have it on point, you trade it in for another set of struggles and problems.

For instance, I can be crying at home, being single and feeling alone. Or I can be crying at home, because my man is out all hours of the night, or is abusive, or is cold, or whatever, and STILL feel alone.

Or I can rejoice at where my life is heading AND be excited that God is preparing me and my so called soulmate so that we can BOTH be ready when we finally meet. All about timing. All about timing.

moral #1:
praise and be thankful of what you have NOW and not cry and be sad at what you don’t have.

moral #2
cliche as it sounds- things happen for a REASON! Milk it for what it is worth and let it work towards your advantage.
moral #3
it was my moon phase. It all made sense why I was so emotional. I just wanted to breed. All good. Pass me some hot chocolate and see me in a couple of days. I will be good by then.

Monday, March 31, 2003

Someone sent this to me, you're supposed to cut and
paste it with your own answers, then send it to people
you know including the bonehead that sent it to you.
Have fun!


1. WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?
8:30

2. IF YOU COULD EAT LUNCH WITH ONE FAMOUS PERSON, WHO WOULD IT BE?
ryan seacrest.. shit, i dont know

3. GOLD OR SILVER? >
silver

4. WHAT WAS THE LAST MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE CINEMA?
Rabbit-Proof Fence.

5. FAVORITE TV SHOW?
Married by America.... it's like a train wreck

6. WHAT DO YOU HAVE FOR BREAKFAST?
aloe vera juice mixed with mango juice

7. WHAT WOULD YOU HATE TO BE LEFT IN A ROOM WITH?
i agree with arndog, President Bush

8. CAN YOU TOUCH YOUR NOSE WITH YOUR TONGUE?
no, but i can almost touch my chin! is that a good thing or a bad thing?

9. WHAT INSPIRES YOU?
seeing six-year-old kadar read at nommo, my open mic night! "NO MORE WAR!"

10.WHAT'S YOUR MIDDLE NAME?
mirachelle asuncion

11.BEACH, CITY, OR COUNTRY?
Beach

12.SUMMER OR WINTER?
Autumn

13.FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
CAKE BATTER @COLDSTONE'S WITH RASPBERRY AND PECAN PRALINES

14.BUTTERED, PLAIN, OR SALTED POPCORN?
i hate movie popcorn... gross

15.FAVORITE COLOR?
brown

16.FAVORITE CAR?
fuel efficient ones

17.FAVORITE SANDWICH FILLING?
marshmallow fluff n peanut butter!!!!!

18.WHAT CHARACTERISTICS DO YOU DESPISE?
when people act like a sales person to me and THEY AIN'T SELLING SHIT!

19.FAVORITE FLOWER?
gerber daisies

20.IF YOU HAD A BIG WIN IN THE LOTTERY, HOW LONG WOULD
YOU WAIT TO TELL PEOPLE?

oh... whenever i wake up from passing out....

22.FIZZY OR STILL WATER AS A DRINK?
still

23.WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BATHROOM?
white and green

24.HOW MANY KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING?
shit, how many KEYRINGS on my ring!!!

25.WHERE WOULD YOU RETIRE TO?
maybe hawaii

26.CAN YOU JUGGLE?
men? no

27.FAVORITE DAY OF THE WEEK?
friday night

28.RED OR WHITE WINE?
neither... no desire to drink

29.WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY?

MY FRIENDS GAVE ME THE DOPEST SURPRISE PARTY!!!! I LOVE YOU, KAT AND DJ!!

30.ARE YOU A DONOR?

No

31.SAY SOMETHING NICE ABOUT THE PERSON THAT SENT THIS
TO YOU:


i miss arndog tremendously. but i am glad that things are going so well with him and that i pray that he is finally finding happiness!

32.WHO DO YOU LEAST EXPECT TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU?
all my friends who actually work...

33.WHO IS THE PERSON YOU EXPECT TO SEND THIS BACK
FIRST?

caine, cuz i dunno if he actually works but he does get paid for doing something! hahhaha