Wednesday, September 25, 2002

shout out to CAINE, the morton brother who watches over me the most at clubs... ( then again don dada does too but he is not so obvious) and who seems to be more picky about the dudes i talk to than i am...'nah, girl. "x" that! you can do better. don't talk to him."
RES-"tsunami"

Moments they come and then they go
You'll feel so high and then before you know
I could of sworn our future was set in stone
But I guess some things it's just as well for God to know

So now I concentrate on turning wrong to right
I'm going to let go things I held inside so tight
I'm going to live and let forgive things said in spite
Clear out the smoke and usher in the light


me: ((listening to res' "700 mile situation")) siiiiiiiiigh...
capdigy: what's wrong with you?
me:i want to be in love...when is it my turn? (( quickly biting tongue because not too sure if i want it to be my turn yet)))
capdiggy:well, i want a mullet but just like my mullet, it takes time
me: fack!

side note:
a.)for all of you who read my blog for something inspirational or a socio-political commentary, i apologize. allow me to go thru this damn moon phase first and i promise to post something worthwhile again ....

b.) (((he knows the link)))


big triple scoop shout out to NATHAN. thanks for taking me out for my bday! we were at the beach last night. i feel cleansed. ocean waves singing to me, sea mist kissing my cheek, moonshine brushing my hair... i didnt want to leave.

Tuesday, September 24, 2002

damn it i screwed up... okay read this then

my horoscope for the week:
Birds are singing, the sun is shining. Everything's coming up roses. Love is in the air. Happy days are here again. So don't fuck things up. no joke...



side note: i think i have a little crush

ok, so i was thinking... after reading the horoscope, the words,"so don't fuck things up" pops up. hmmm..i may have done that already cuz i posted that i had a crush on a coworker.and what if my soulmate is reading this as we speak? what if i threw off all the kkarmic laws and all the gears of the big esotheric ( what does that mean??) machine ceases to move and i have lost him forever... .... ah, bah! whatever. if my soulmate is meant to be , then the universe will conspire to make it come true. its up to him to make the decision towards making that happen. not my fault if he misses the boat. besides, it is only an innocent little crush..
ok, so i was thinking... after reading the horoscope, the words,"so don't fuck things up" pops up. hmmm..i may have done that already cuz i posted that i had a crush on a coworker.and what if my soulmate is reading this as we speak? what if i threw off all the kkarmic laws and all the gears of the big esotheric ( what does that mean??) machine ceases to move and i have lost him forever...

....


ah, bah! whatever. if my soulmate is meant to be , then the universe will conspire to make it come true. its up to him to make the decision towards making that happen. not my fault if he misses the boat. besides, it is only an innocent little crush..

so. jeremy (that is his name.. like you know him!!! and going to tell him!!!) is going to shop around for some trucks and wheels for the deck
:)

Sunday, September 22, 2002


sippin'- caramel frappacino ( i know, bad alfie)
chatting- with arndawg about the de la hoya/vargas fight and ric about experimental/junkyard hip hop
loungin'- at my parent's house
thinkin'- about how blessed i am born into this family, love and issues and all...


relevation #1:
back in 97, grampa cecilio died. he was my dad's father.he was the last of the grandparents to have passed on. my father took the news with stride, saying he is in a better place and now he watches over us. that same day,my father chopped down a big tree in our front yard. he chopped it down until it was nothing but a mere stump. i asked my father why he had done that and he said it was so that the grass underneath it can grow; the leaves had grown so much that the grass underneath had died in patches because of the lack of sunlight. i knew he did it out of grief because if it was just the case of lack of sunlight, he would have just trimmed the branches down.

i came home today to have found a tree, striving in the same spot. the roots were not dead and life goes on. new beginnings, my people. strong roots bear a strong foundation, my people....

revelation #2:
don't go hip hop dancing with skate shoes. they are too heavy and you grip the floor too much. you end up with sore calves in the morning. just looking out for you, my people...

revelation#3:
they found my sister's car (or what was left of it) in compton. they gutted it. took the interior, the engine, and the hood. they did leave her school books and a few of her belongings (what sweet bastards). her car was taken from her college campus while she was in class from 930am to1230pm.WHILE SHE WAS IN SCHOOL!
goes to show that you are never safe, even if you are in www.valencia.com