[[[doomed]]]

today, i have discovered ebay...

life is dead as we now know it.

[[[fast and furious]]]

day two of fasting. well, not completely fasting but ia m working myself up to that. yesterday was fruit and yerba mate tea. today, i am trying real real hard to not drink any caffiene and start drinking more water. my body needs to be in balance right now.i need to schedule an appointment with my chinese holistic doctor, even if he ridicules me. from what i understand, he clowns everybody. "your liver is as damaged as an 80 yr old." maaaaaaaaaan, fugg you! haha! but whatever. he is right. so now i have to stay away from pasta, sugar (((sigh))), rice ((cringing)), and coffee (( falling to the floor in a dramatic heap of uninhibited emotional dispair))).. (( collecing myself)). i need a pressure point massage to. imagine how odd i must look to my coworkers with me trying to release negative energy by pressing down hard on the five pressure points on the crown of my head. faustino, a healer, taught me that and it works wonders. been noticing that my ill feelings do actually correlate to the pain i feel when pressing down pressure points in my hands. great.. i can hear dr. wu now..."look at yourself! you were not listening to me! i told you what you to do and you don't listen. your liver is shitty now." hahahaahahaha

random thought:::..

always take herbal capsule pills with a drink and not dry like you you can with some pills. oh the horror you feel when one of those pills disinagrate in your throat, releasing the burning powder, filling up your sinuses, making you grab your face and throat in pain.. no drama needed there... that ish really does hurt!

random thought:::...

how sucky it would be to have a narcaleptic's sex life...(( ohhhh yesss.. yessss..... zzzzzzzzz)) note to narcaleptics: i am not hating on you.. okay, i am. i am an insomniac and i would like to for once, be able to sleep 8 hours straight thru... shit.. five hours straight thru...


[[[alfie mcbeal]]]

finding love in los angeles is a lost cause. you can't find love in a market ...(okay, never mind. there is nick and flo)... okay, you can't find love at a cafe ( damn, nevermind.. there is don and dj) you cannot find love at a club.. no way ( oops, nope.. juan and aimee did).. at a bar? ( yup, phil and christine did)... well, you can't find love in activism. i mean, you are too busy saving the world.( crap, that is darren and phloe).. fine... you can't find love at a cultural/art event ( fudge!!! that is kat and phil). you definitely cannot find love at work (sigh, hazel and jeff)...fudgin' aye...i will be danged if you can find love on the internet!!! (((( shit!! that is arnold and christel and mike and lee))). vacationing??? ( miko and stryper)....okay.... here we go... you.. cannot ... find love... when you are from germany and he/she is from australia... vacationing in thailand..........
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(( siiiiiiiiiiiiiigh, dagmar and her husband))

guess the point is...

you...

no...

make that "i"...

scratch that...

love cannot find me cuz....

i am too much on the move